crazy kids

More than beyond the 1/2 way mark. I begin to prepare for nostalgia (just kidding! I enjoy every moment)

This weekend was kick ass. Mary Kaye, a spung spring of light poured into the room & infectiously entertained us all with her spirit & laughter.
This realm of teaching is something I feel is more in line with my authentic self. Even though, I originally started this with no intention to ever teach..haha, did I mention that?
I had already registered for Karma Kids teacher training in nyc & wasn't sure if it was legit. I was pleased to hear that it was a program that she recommended. I bought 2 of her books, one for kids and the other for teens. Both will blend nicely with my non profit aspirations once training is over.

I haven't really addressed my non profit project in this forum, but I will once the website is launched officially.
My pal designed my logo and it makes me want to scream out with delight and anticipation for this project I created.

We had a pretty intense sutra bowl meditation with Jacqui on sat. I had the strangest thoughts and memories come up during this meditation/yoga practice and in the end it felt good to let it go. It's amazing what your brain allows to come up while you "practice" meditation.

During paper presentations emotions were churning on both days. It was funny b/c (sorry for what I am about to say next) I realized I was more emotional because I was 'dropping eggs' as I like to call it- or as polite people like to say, at a place in my cycle where I was more emotional than usual. There was a lot of talk about failed relationships & rejection. It's amazing how we all really go through the same pain in our own ways. I feel that I can relate to every presenter. And not in that "well, let me tell you about mahself...." kind of way. In a sincere module of compassion & empathy.

I was reading The Anatomy of the Spirit and the author speaks of our emotional experience and how they form our blue print- so to speak for health. I know that for some it is impossible to accept this, but It makes me wonder about the years of depression/self loathing, eating disorders, drug use, to name a few and what they did to me physically. I guess there is no time like the present to proactively treat and suppress those reactions.

The more I write, the more I think I should probably post my paper- that would be a lot easier than regurgitating it all up.
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We talked again about the reading- I am learning intense lessons on judgement in every respect, shape and form.

People judge the books, people judge other people, do I judge people who judge the books that I wasn't judging?

it's pretty funny and interesting to think about. I want to work on accepting other people's approaches to the readings, lecturers, etc...Just because I am so open and fluttering around like 12 year old at a sleepover seance doesn't men I am right or crazy- haha. I am so thankful to be receptive to all of the readings- but for some that isn't possible right now.

It doesn't mean I'm crazy and it doesn't mean I'm right.

I guess it's back to Marianne Williamson's quote that "we are not policing the universe"


My recommended order of the readings (in hopes to stave off resistance) would be:
Heart of Yoga
Moving into Stillnes
Deepak Chopra
Marianne Williamson,
Miracles
Louise Hay
Abraham Hicks

It's all not for everyone. But I applaud those who try!

throw in the Sutra's wherever- which I ended up loving in the end...