lessons in learning

A few theme's from this weekend were: relationships>mother's>forgiving oneself.

You still here? Heavy. As a former horrible child, participant in unhealthy relationships, number 1 critic to myself, this was relevant to say the very least.

When I went to nyc to participate in Mike Daisey's monologue seminar I started my monologue with "My biggest fear is that when I speak my mother's eulogy, no one will believe I'm sad"

I've come pretty far since then. And I've forgiven my self for a lot. But with the practice of meditation it seems the quest never ends. New thoughts arise and I let them go. Some of my favorite statements from fellow teacher trainee's were loosely along the lines of 'there are 1,000 chances to start over' or you have a "million turns" to turn it all around, or sometimes the "one's who go through the most early on, end up having them most to give", or the cherry on top: "looking back at myself back then is like looking at someone else's life"

Hey fellow yoga trainee's it's official. You are Teacher's.