21 cleanse

what kind of cleanse? like a juice cleanse?
no, a sprit cleanse says our teacher.

what in de hell is that? i wonder.
oh, good. I hope I cry!!!!!!!

I love extremes & in betweens. I love grey days, & I super duper love a good rainy week of days. And I don't mind crying.

I'm not emo or angsty, I also love the beach and sun and fun and laughing (like everyone indicates on their social networking profiles) I just LIKE it all. Up down, around, grey area and in between.

The other day I had a bug out.
literally. Convinced that beatrice had flea's (kitten), turned into an idea that there were bed bugs, evolved into a weird dream where I dreamt of a spider - kind of like a black widow but not one, and woke up with spider bites all over me...so I thought.

Fogged, the house, bathed the cat, swept the floor, bought a new bedspread, you know the usual. haha!
But the weird thing was that my partner in sleep had no bites on him. I know, I'm sweet, but I assure you he's sweeter.

Wake up 3 days later. Bites all over my neck & throat. Right side. No, not bites, welts. call dr. go to doctor.

I saw a spider or 2, I think they are spider bites.
They're not spider bites. says my level headed clinical mannered doctor.
hmmm, I think. this must be all in my head (literally)
"are you stressed out? financially?"
uhh, yes??????? resounding I think
Then, she brought it back to my cat. told me I have hives, not bites & gave me a new inhaler and antihistimine.

I call my boyfriend and cry. Nothing crazy just few emotive tears.
I feel tired. slowly better....

Oh my dog. I think. Still not thinking about the cleanse.
Go to work. Co worker says this type of "bleedthrough" happens to her friend when she gets energy work done.
Still don't put it all together.
Throat, communication, right side
I go to my guru
good old louise hay.
Hives, making mountains out of molehills.
right side- masculine energy etc..father. the nina the pinta & the santamaria.


A very important side note would be that from 17-23 I was a shell of myself. Old friends are here to remind me. But people who know me now, would never believe the girl I was throughout those bleak years. I cringe when I think about them, but I know that they serve me my most valuable lessons. I feel like this strange bleed through is redeeming me a tiny bit from years of no communication and bad habits.

hmmm, my affirmation is "i bring peace to all the corners of my life"
I say it over and over at work. I write it on a piece of paper.

I go to yoga this morning.
I remember the 21 day cleanse.

some type of something. something like a pain, past, bad roddy rod piper- ghost of christmas past just jumped out of my neck.
Ahah!