I've been opening my self up to so many new things lately. It really is so amazing.
I went to a free reiki workshop at Open doors in Braintree the other day. It was pretty cool. During class some students seem to get mad or sad during certain meditations. I don't really experience that, I just feel really good and pretty much check out. Or maybe I'm really checking in. WHo knows. My yearning to experience something- good or bad reminds me of being a kid and wanting braces or a cast or something like that to stand out...I am 1/2 kidding because I am also happy that maybe- maybe? I have already worked out some stuck energy prior to practicing these meditations on my own time. When I went to the Reiki room I met a really nice, gentle, informative mom/retired school librarian aged woman who asked me if I wanted her to help with anything in particular. Not really, I thought. I'm just here (again!) for the ride. There was no ailment or emotion I wanted to heal or focus on. I just wanted to experience what it was before I went forward to learn more. I also had heard that the Reiki would go where it was needed no matter what- so what are ya going to do? My entire love affair with the ocean is based on the fact that it is bigger than me- so this is kind of the same thing :)
She set me up on her table and opened her self up to the Reiki. As she placed her hands on me- it just felt good. I closed my eyes and allowed myself to feel this goodness. Taking in what it felt like to have my vibration at such an amazing place. It reminded me of when I was really really young- probably around 4 years old and was at my babysitters house. The sun was shining and I was looking at the linoleum fake 1980's brick kitchen floor and for some reason I felt a warm felling in my little heart & said to myself "this is what love feels like" I've felt it at many other points in my life. But at that particular instance there was color, light, feeling, & a little child's intention to remember this- or catalogue this feeling. It was also an internal love. I felt it within myself. The sun shining probably helped too. As she placed her hands all along my body it felt better and better. At the end she asked me what it felt like for me and I replied with "really good" haha, She said some energy was strong from my feet and that normally she would have intuition about this- but didn't today. I can't think of what that could be- But I did wear fancy heeled booties to work that day so maybe my dogs were barking. Just kidding. I really am proud of myself for allowing my self to open up to these new experiences & not just talk about it.
